INTRODUCTION

  

    Hi, my name is Edelyn Christabella, you can call me EC. This is the first time I post my selfie on a public platform, and by this you know that I'm actually a confident-insecure girl. I always think that nobody wants to see my whole face in their timeline. I have a trouble with moving on. Whether it is from a relationship, or a memory. I love reading a heart touching long ass text, motivational quotes, beautiful poems, and all the cliche things. I am very sentimental and I cry often. Oh, I love penguins, and my friends told me that I run like them.

    I found it hard to accept the way I am in some ways. I’m making friends by having a deep relationship with them personally, so it sometimes hard for me to be in a group even though I know them deeply. I love having a late night or even daylight deep talk. I’m quite random and need to dump everything inside my head. Sometimes I think that I’m not fun to be with. But, you will be fun in the right eyes, right?

    Just until recently, I can now accept myself the way I am . It’s not a crime for being that cliche, love deep talk, awkward kind of girl tho. Why should I be sorry for being me?...

    It's surely a long journey to really realise all these things, but again we are human. We get lost, blaming ourselves, rise up, and fall again. I accepted all these things before, but the circumstances made me sorry for being myself again. Maybe, in the future, I’ll lose myself again, blaming myself again, but then rise again.

    To you, who are still searching in a deep dark ocean, please do remember, it’s not a crime for being you. You are unique in the way you are, you are only one and you are special. Through the process of finding the real you, you will lose yourself, questioning a lot, being unfamiliar with yourself to the point that you really hate it. But at the end of the road, you will realise you’ve always been you, even though you are changing, you are you. Let’s be a best friend to ourselves, let’s not hurt ourselves even more. Be true and honest to yourself, you are the only one who knows yourself deeply.