NOT NUMB, BUT STRONGER

After tons of hardships I experienced, especially last year and this year, along with a rejection of being weak from someone really close to me, I can say I am stronger now. At first, I thought I was numb. Recently, there was something that made me burnt out and stressed a lot, mainly it was because something I couldn’t control. But, I didn’t think much about it, but the stress was there, under the subconscious. There was also a time where I felt something deeply, but I didn’t really think about it, but again, unconsciously it was actually quite a big matter.

And finally I tried to reflect on myself, I thought I was numb, but then I realized, I am not numb, but stronger. Guess, it is part of maturing?

Well.. I’m quite proud of myself, the old Edelyn used to panic a lot, used to have bad insomnia, but here she is now, slowly dealing with her issue, and trying to be calm.

This journey also involved God, since I can’t control what I was stressing about, my parents and surroundings always reminded me to trust His timing and His power. Although the stress was still there, at least I knew that everything will happen in His timing and just trust His leads. 

“When the time is right, I, the Lord, will make it happen.” - Isaiah 60 : 22